#024 Natali the Bengali Size Queen (Part 2)
Natali talks about the times she used Tinder and what she used it for, as well as the reasons that drove her to buy a premium subscription, which wasn't easy to do in her home country.
Note: This is a real story with real events, but the names have been changed and personal identifying information is always redacted in audio recordings and screenshots.
Warning: This is just a kink, and the content is meant for pleasure. If you are distressed, stop reading and seek help.
I kept trying to convince Natali to become a TikTok influencer, but she told me no law firm would ever hire her if she was seen dancing in skimpy outfits on the internet. I told her that if she made enough money online, she wouldn’t even have to work in a law firm. She did agree that a lot of girls online make way more money than she could ever hope to make as a lawyer. Natali seemed to be coming around to the idea, and she thought it wouldn’t be such a big deal if she wore a mask in her videos so that no one would recognize her in real life.
I joked with Natali that in the era of filters, she didn’t even need to wear a mask. I told her she could just use filters to change her appearance and enhance her facial features, and by the same token make herself unrecognizable from her real face in real life. Filters would effectively work as a mask. She laughed. I told Natali the saying: “you’re not ugly, you’re just poor”.
She lamented that she was broke and really wanted to change her situation, but she didn’t want to go the route of sexualizing herself, even if it was the route many girls were taking these days. She asked me how it was that guys got rich, and I told her it was through hard work, which she didn’t want to do either. I asked her if she really wanted to work for 12 hours a day, stressing herself out endlessly in the office doing a job she wasn’t passionate about. She obviously didn’t want to do any of that. She yearned to be a simple girl and get married to a guy who’d be willing to pay all her bills.
I asked her why a man would agree to pay her bills if she didn’t have anything to offer him in exchange. She told me she didn’t have high expectations, that she didn’t want any expensive gifts or anything of the sort. I asked her what her expectations were exactly, and she told me she wanted a man who would pay her rent, her food, and even buy her a car eventually. In short, she wanted him to completely support her financially. Even she laughed when she was telling me all the things she expected because she realized that her demands were not realistic given her situation.
She told me that in exchange for being supported financially, she’d cook and clean and perhaps even give the man children. She didn’t seem very enthusiastic about the latter matter. Plus, she’d listen to her man, she said, barely concealing her laughter from how ridiculous she sounded. I told her that all the things she mentioned were things other girls would be ready to do as well, but she didn’t agree. She seemed to think that most girls wouldn’t cook and clean and listen to a guy who would take it upon himself to pay for all their living expenses.
I told Natali that in any case, she had to put herself out on the dating market and know how to market herself properly. That was the only way she’d be able to find the guy she was looking for. If she stayed home and didn’t go out, the man she was looking for wasn’t about to simply drop out of the sky. Natali told me that her home country was very conservative anyway, which complicated things. She told me that even pornography was banned on the internet in her country, and the only way to access it was to use a VPN.
Natali told me that this internet censorship even extended to dating apps, where she was unable to purchase any premium subscriptions on Tinder or Bumble. It sounded like she had already tried to do that in the past but was unsuccessful. It seemed that her country considered dating apps to be adult websites, and therefore banks didn’t allow transactions to be made on those apps. I told Natali she could perhaps use PayPal to pay for the dating apps, but she told me her country didn’t have PayPal either.
This was when Natali started to open up about her dating experience. She told me that even with so many restrictions, she still found a way in the past to get Tinder Gold, Tinder’s premium subscription package. She had a friend in the UK that she sent money to, and this friend bought her Tinder Gold. I asked her why she needed the premium subscription, and she told me that she was looking to date, and that although the free Tinder worked just fine, she wanted to see the guys that she really liked instead of seeing all the guys that were on the app.
I asked Natali how Tinder Gold helped her accomplish that, and she told me there was an option that allowed her to only look at the guys who were the most popular on Tinder. It was clear that Natali didn’t want to waste any of her time looking at losers that other girls didn’t like. It was just a consequence of her natural laziness: she wanted the other girls on Tinder to do the hard work for her of figuring out which guy was worth it and which guy wasn’t. Therefore, Natali was only interested in the guys that the other girls on Tinder were interested in. It was a sound strategy, although it meant she threw herself in fierce competition for a very select number of guys that all the girls were after.
I asked Natali how her experience on Tinder was, and she told me it was fine, although she got quickly bored of it. I thought this meant she didn’t go on any dates, but she told me she did. She used Tinder three times in her life up to that point: the first time she was on it didn’t yield any dates, but the second and third times, she said she went out with “a few guys”. The way she subtly paused before saying “a few guys” and her rising intonation at the end made me think it was more than just a few guys she went out with.
She told me she got into some sort of relationship with a guy from Tinder the second time she was using it. They were into each other. She really liked him, even though he was “crazy”. She made him sound like the kind of guy who always wanted to know where she was, the controlling type. She told me she couldn’t bring herself to break up with him because he wouldn’t let her.
I found that strange. How could a guy stop her from breaking up with him if she wanted to? It seemed more likely that Natali just liked him too much, despite his craziness—or maybe because of it. The fact that she got into a relationship with him already showed he was a man of high value. After all, Natali was only swiping on the most popular guys on Tinder, and this guy must have been one of them. I could only imagine the kind of sex he was having with Natali.
In any case, Natali told me she had to make up a lie to break up with him. The lie was that she went back with a previous ex of hers. According to Natali, the guy wouldn’t leave her alone and was even showing up at her workplace and at her doorstep trying to convince her to take him back. It was only after she invented the lie about getting back with her ex that the guy ceased his stalkerish attempts at winning her back.
Natali told me she was happy with her decision to break up with him because she found out he wasn’t a “very good person”. Some time after they broke up, the guy had plans of marrying another girl. Natali knew about this somehow, but she never told me how exactly. I imagined she was stalking him too to see what he was up to in his life. It was clear the guy left an impression on her.
According to Natali, a few weeks before the wedding, the guy called her on the phone and asked her if she was still with her ex. It wasn’t clear why Natali would pick up a phone call from the guy she went through so much pain to break up with. It was the hardest break up of her life, after all. Not only that, but Natali told him she wasn’t with her ex anymore, even though the whole thing had been a lie. Why would she drop her lie all of a sudden? Did she secretly want him to be interested in her again, even if she knew he was about to get married? I never knew the reason.
The reason for the phone call was because the guy wanted to ask Natali if she wanted to marry him instead of the girl he was planning on marrying in a few weeks. It sounded like the guy couldn’t get over Natali, and was prepared to ditch his current girl for her if she decided to take him back and marry him.
Remember that this was one of those top guys on Tinder that Natali was exclusively interested in, and the fact that he was so obsessed with Natali only showed her true value on the dating market, despite how she jokingly deprecated herself. In any case, that was when Natali realized that breaking up with that guy was a good decision, because the roles could have been reversed, and she could have been the one getting ditched a few weeks before a planned wedding.
It did not escape my attention how Natali added “kind of” after claiming her experience with that guy was a bad one. It was clear that there was more to the story than she was sharing, and the fact she wasn’t sharing it made me think it could have only been sexual. Perhaps she had the best sex of her life with him and that was what made her cling to him even though he was “crazy”.
I asked Natali if that guy was the only one she went out with during that second time she was using Tinder. She told me she went out with a few other guys, but the longest one she saw was that “crazy” guy. She told me that her intention during the second time she was using Tinder was to find a serious relationship, not just to hook up.
Natali then told me about the third time she used Tinder, and how she was specifically looking for a hookup that time. It was through talking about the guy she hooked up with that she revealed to me her thoughts about penis size and her personal preferences, which shocked me.